Boring Weekends
Sometimes I look at my phone and see all my friends posting their crazy adventures that they have within our two day period of freedom and think to myself, I wish that were me. However, it could very have been me and I wouldn't actually wanna be where they are. I prefer boring weekends over exciting ones, or at least my body is to accustomed to not being invited to the party or get togethers that are being held around me. I'm not sure about many other people, but I just stay in my room all day and don't do anything exciting, asides from homework and playing videogames. Even writing this I'm just alone in my room with nothing of interest to do (unless you count flow chart memorization and physics as fun).
I'm not sure if I just choose to be uninteresting or if by some divine providence, nothing exciting happens to me, or when it does it greatly irritates me. Its like a wrench being thrown into your plan of doing nothing all day. I'm honestly amazed by people that go out all the time and have fun with their friends, meanwhile I'm at my house in my room, in yesterdays clothes because I can't muster up the strength to function as a proper human being, to the aliens that call themselves "human beings" that can, I applaud you. However, when I am spending all my time alone and looking at all the friends that live about five minutes by bike away from me, I often wonder why I'm never invited to anything... Am I the only one that kind of just feels left out because no one calls me on the weekend or initiates conversations with me? I feel like this is a regular occurrence and when people do talk to me its all hogwash and during the weekday. No one wants to plan out hangouts or gaming sessions, during the weekends all I get is a "Hey Alex, can I borrow a pencil?". Which leads to me always being free on the weekends.
Alongside the lack of socialization, I, the utmost social butterfly, receive, sometimes I feel like it wouldn't matter if I had friends ask me to hangout with them. Uni kind of "destroys social lives", which when I had applied wondered if it would happen to me, but as a wise man once said to me,"You can't kill whats already dead". I have too much homework, that I find horribly tiresome, so much to the point of where I don't have time for anything extra on the weekends (not like anyone invites me to anything). Even if someone were to invite me to something, I'd likely spitefully not go, since they had their chance to hangout with me and chose not to (unless they were really cool). Anyways, what do you on the weekends? How interesting are your two days of freedom?
Alex,
ReplyDeleteFirst and foremost, I am genuinely impressed by your quality of writing and depth in this post. One of the aspects of this post that I appreciate most is it's distinct personality. When reading it feels like I'm not just staring at a computer screen; this post made me feel connected to your thoughts and ideas. You have been completely honest in a way that is not only engaging, but also relatable for me on a lot of different levels (like having a billion tons of homework to do and just not enough time, or feeling an awkward need to both stay home during the weekends, yet also go out and be social). In a lot of ways, I think you've hit the nail on the head in terms of how a lot of people can feel, and were able to do so in a very tasteful manner. As for me, I try to find a balance, but I'd be lying if I said I achieved that regularly. Anyhow, it is what it is. Thanks for sharing!
I feel like different people have different preferences and it doesn't make you not a functioning human if you don't go out on weekends. Also a lot of people make there stories and videos they share a lot more exciting than what is actually happening, it's just how society works.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Rahi on how what you see on social media can look more exciting than what's really going on. In today's society, people have the power to portray their lives in the most fun or exciting way possible, so they highlight those aspects while leaving out the everyday mundane things. Your post is very personal and far-reaching, so thank you for sharing your feelings, because you're not alone.
DeleteI can definitely relate to your feelings in this post. I feel like after a long week (or even day...) at school, all I really want to do is sleep or waste time on the internet, not try and find the necessary energy to hang out with friends. I also agree with Rahi, though, that social media stories and videos are more of a highlight reel than reality; I don't think everyone's life is really as cool as it looks on Snapchat.
ReplyDeleteI like this post a lot. It has an interesting and complex perspective and captures your conflicting feelings about your weekends and your social life well. You explain why you like boring weekends but also why wonder how it would be different if you were asked to hang out more really well. I like your line "you can't kill what's already dead" and I think that your thoughts about Uni's environment are certainly true, it can be really exhausting to try to plan for social events outside of school because we're all exhausted by the weekend. I like boring weekends too because it gives me some down time to just recharge. Overall, great post and your prose was awesome.
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